A string of lights

The only time that I see my brother now is when he "happens" to be at my mother's house, which means he wants something from one of us.

I seriously don't know what is up with him.

We were raised the same, but well, we do not get along. He is older than I am by a couple of years. But that isn't the thing. All my life he has only felt the need to make things hard for me.

Now he needs something, but it is not for him. He is getting married. He skipped that part the first time and just went stright to making babies. Babies he hasn't see in years.

But this time is "for real."

Now he wants me to organize a bridal shower for her and welcome her into our family. Introduce her to our friends. People he has no conact to and doesn't want contact with. I am honestly at a loss. We'll see.

I'm still the queen


Cooking up a storm

My mom would make this about once a month and for my dad's birthday:

  1. Home made fried chicken
  2. Biscuits from scratch with butter, and strawberry jam
  3. Broccoli with cheese
  4. Mashed potatoes with gravy made from the chicken drippings
  5. Sweet ice tea
  6. Banana pudding with waffers

That was it, simple, delicious and it tasted like home. How I can match that for my kids it as question I may never answer but I do make a delicious pasta sauce from scratch that leaves them hungry for more. But I am not sure if they will remember it the same way that I remember that treat.

My grandma used to make the best Shepard's Pie ever. I was so giddy everytime I knew she was making it.

Sorry, I guess I just felt sentimental today.


Fond memories

If you wanted me to be part of your adult life you shouldn't have been a jackass growing up.

For me family is th most important aspect of my life. But while I have talked about my family. I rarely mention that I have a brother. Mainly because he has been a pain in the neck my whole life.

My brother and I never got along and when I tried recently to repair the relationship, he completely ruined it. He broke any and all trust I could ever have for for him and I am not a lesser person for admitting it. I refuse to allow him into my life because of his toxic attitude and bad behavior. I mean, how manyof you have an older brother who even at age 35 still thinks its ok to use violence against you.

I'm as close, or closer, to my friends than I will ever be to him.

Yet, here he is knocking on my door again.

Some people are just assholes. sometimes those people are your family. it's ok to not want a relationship with any asshole, regardless of their affiliation with you.